Important truths left unsaid
I used to be a leftist. Back then, I was
immersed in a worldview. I believed that we were right and they were wrong. Every
now and then, though, I would experience cognitive dissonance. I might be
reading an article in the New York Times, listening to a story on
National Public Radio, or conversing with a fellow leftist. I would enter these
exchanges feeling that we – I and the media source or my interlocutor and I –
were on the correct side of things, and that we stood against all that was
unholy and we would correct error with our righteousness.
But then I would hear something that would get me thinking. These thoughts would always be blurry; I unconsciously pressured myself not to pursue these thoughts to their logical conclusion, so they remained inchoate. I pressured myself because I did not want to contradict people who were smarter than I was. I had facts at hand to support a left-wing point of view. I did not have facts at hand to support a conservative point of view. And, I knew, even if unconsciously, that if I went too far in my transgressive thought patterns, I would be thinking and eventually saying things that I would be punished for. My interlocuter might mock my stupidity, and my missing the obvious flaw in my thoughts. Or I might upset someone. Or I might lose a friend.


